17 Aug 2015

This post may not be that interesting to most but to those who I know personally Hi. How are you? By my guesses it's been a long time since I've seen a lot of you and maybe your just being a little nosey but that's fine because if you had a public blog that you've started sharing on twitter since leaving high school I would be reading it too. 

I started this blog three years ago; a time when I felt I needed my own space to let things out and when a diary started to feel slightly juvenile and a place I could slightly edit my words to make them comprehensive and not just a jumble of words I'd wrote in an emotional state, I turned to blogging. At that point when I was 14, I didn't think I would ever share these posts with people I see everyday in fear of being judged and so I kept it to myself and I'm happy I did because it was just my little space that a few strangers read. 

Since leaving high school, I didn't feel I wanted to keep it a secret any more. I'd made friends through my blog and wanted to start posting links on twitter and speaking to people I knew through blogging openly without people thinking that it's just weird. 

It had been a few months since I'd started openly sharing my posts before someone turned to me and went "Sarah do you have a blog or something? I saw you link a post this morning" I replied simply "Yep" and they said "cool". They asked me a few questions about the whole thing- about what I post, how long for and "are you, like, Zoella?" and I answered and I could tell that she was actually interested and wasn't judging me. 

Just last week Jade and Jacob, two of my closest friends, stayed at mine and Jade mentioned something about my blog  and was asking me about it and I think it was then that I realised how many people close to me had read my blog and didn't actually care and weren't judgemental but actually thought it was a great thing I was doing and I'm so grateful for that. I just gave them one rule; don't read my posts back to me! 

I'll admit it, I'm not very open with my friends. I do keep myself to myself and I'd rather write things down than tell someone but maybe them reading my blog will help me be more open with them because there are posts written that I could never just tell my friends; writing seems to help me get my words out. 

So to people I know personally who are reading my blog- yes, I have a blog and have for 3 years. Some posts are personal and may indirectly reference you because that's where my inspiration may have come from but don't take offence. Feel free to carry on reading my blog or don't; either is fine with me. For those that stick around, I'm not changing what I write about and while I'm now aware that you know me personally and my posts may cover topics I've never spoken to you about before, I'm going to carry on writing how I usually write because all this is, really, is a diary; one that I choose to write and share online and so it will carry on being personal whether you're reading or not. A lot of my posts are based on experiences that I may have not been able to tell you about before- not because I'm James Bond or anything but because I've never had the opportunity or courage to tell you certain things. 

I hope you understand what I'm trying to say and I hope you enjoy my blog and feel free to go back and read every single post if your want.
Hope you're doing great,
Sarah x

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